candyeyedqueen

i just feel like writing. school is OUT! ..wow so much has seriosuly changed since the last time i wrote...wow its just a different world. i dont even kno where to begin ..so i wont. well im pickin angie up from school 2day then were goin 2 sixflags. yummie. dip n dots rock my socks. this week should be pretty tite...i dunno, well see. ok so thats all im gonna write ...TTYL.

Current Mood: awake

i dont even kno who still writes in these exclusive LJ's anymore. i dont care tho, i kno jess hobbs does and she better than all yalls! haha 4 real im bummed terri u and i didnt hit up roses, oh well we will one of these days and it'll me crazy sexy cool.
soo im taking an easy this week, i think im gonna just skate saturday if it doesnt snow< PLZ NO!, and chill with it the rest of this week, cuz my toe hurts from kickin a certain fella's rim, ouchies, i have the worst aim, and im a physco. who doesnt kno this? so i turned in my appl. to capclubhouse, oh yeah i got that shit on lock , in the bag, its gonna rock ass, lol prolly not but i like to think having a job again will make everything better. turned my parkin pass in, yay! slow bastards prolly take them weeks to issue me a damn pass. w/e im just totally glad i took care of that. i applyed at old navy cuz workin with maggie would totally kick ass. shes so great. things r better at school since gettin close to Gaby, shes like a lil sis i never had. dont get me wrong mah grls r awesome there and whatnot, and i love jackie 4 lettin me copy off that AP eng. and mikeeee.....should i totaly purse this shit, they told me they stopped by my house sat nite, to hit up a party, i was def with justin rodney viktora and kristen, but im honored they thought to bring me along. mike's cute. maybe i should look nice tommorow, its good to have someone to look pretty for. i used to have that at GP. sara's party is on saturday after practice, i have plans to pick up becka and go do the damn thing, ect. ect. Bro's coming home, greattttt! sike its ok i guess. justin's online and hes not talkin to me LOL> i dont care. life wreaker. HEHE! im OK IM OK...IM NOT OK>im gonna be ok. becuz everything is GREAT...really i wanna take a dance class with bec, HGK back dancing would be HOT we rocked Jr high poms divison in Mid school. we kicked ASS! shakin our bootys , micro bootys cuz we were so YOUNG, and INNocent, i loved dancing with mah sis at burroughs. i found our lucky butterfly hair clips ms reynolds would put in our gel twists, YEAH I WAS SO BLACK, lol! its broken now but the memories in which it contains. that shit was way better than cheering but they both had there GLORY. and i'll always have my skating which rains above it all, i left my coach b4 i moved, and i miss her alot, but we had a blow out becuz she wanted me to be ms USFSA CHAMp of the world, and i just wanted to Not be. shit happens, im outtie i guess, lata babes.

school tommorow. yay i get to see mah girls..haha SIKE. i dont even really care. i call them the mean girls, so really how close r we? <sad. im listening to songs 1 of my x bfs sent me along time ago on my itunes. blah blah i guess these were OUr songs. hell that was years ago. so new years. drama drama drama. must i explain...nah i dont wanna relive that shit. melanie and i arent really on good terms and i could really care less...well seriously she told her mom on me and kris, OK hello were all growing up but apperently shes growing down. who does that? then terri rang, more drama. i love her tho 4real. i promised kristi that we'd def hang out more ...due to the mela issues ima have more free time. my new yrs res. was def to wrap up all my lil loose fling relationships. by that i mean end them. find someone new. fall in new love. someone who isnt a friend of Rashad's. never again, never again. But andrew hasnt called back i did leave him a "we should talk" message. i wanted to say sorry 4 being a bitch when we went to dinner. but honestly he was being a REAL bitch himself. and justin....shake it off, get over it, push ignore...even if im dying to hear his cute lil voice, actually its very sexy. But thats not even important. new guy new guy. as much as im all about dating the bois in my inner cicle whom i've known 4ever, i just cant handle otha ppl in my shit. shad and mel ran me and andrew. so fuck everyone, IN THE ASS! uhhhhh why am i soooo mean. ok be nice..another new yrs res. ..which im bout to break in about 2 seconds. forreal i just need time to sort things out. byes yall. luv u bunnies.

Current Mood: groggy

ah so sick of family and all. just wanna be alone for alooong time. be some sort of antisocial outcast< im losing my damn mind. life seems to long. x-mas was ok. nothing like it used to be. everyone i want to be close with...i just can't. i just got off the phone with carrie, she has qualities i wish i had. sometimes i need her to just be me and handle my shit. cuz i can't, not always neways. i guess x mas day had its good points, some family friends we've had since wayy before any of us kids were born. they r grown up, and oh so spoiled to death. uh well we all have our bad traits. i wanna get decorating my room this week with identical twin, so i can spend all my time in it and actually like it. actually i just wanna move in with her. family sometimes only goes so far, so sick of all the liars and haters in my family. just wanna run away, but i could never do it alone. im helpless. i dont wanna think about school. or anything of that matter. its the bane of my exsistance. i need someone to save me from myself. uh..life.

Current Mood: so bad, no words can tell

i wasnt goin to school today anyways cuz its monday and well mondays r the worst. so its all snowy outside and i was just starring out the window and remembering. me and mela always got together when school was out, hung out, went outside, listened to country and talked. I MISS IT soooo much. and on those 2 hr delays at Gp. ahh so much fun, we'd play in the snow and i just miss it. i miss seeing justin totten and the look on his face when i strolled in that bitch lookin AMAZING. with my cute lil beenie's , and just being with my girls. i guess i shouldnt dwell on everything and i need to put it behind me but i just miss it so much. im gonna cry now. byes.

Current Mood: nostalgic

Seduction is my favorite word ever.



Now that you're here
I got somethin' to say baby
I think that you should know
You're givin' the most, suga
So don't worry 'bout the situation
I'd never let you go
^ TO HIM

So today i got up early early 4 church, then got sum lunch, hooked up with identical twin at the mall. spent sooo much $ on ppl and myself. im so bad. i just gotta get the older bro something from spencers and get dad something nice. I got sum cute ass heels, and carrie and i got sunglasses at pacsun. i should work there?!?! anyways i saw Nick < hottie hottie wigger baby from stone, whom hasnt been at school in awhile. hes so ...sexable. YummI. haha it was funny carrie and i were in the expedition blasting 95.5 with our shades on. lookin like high rollers, i told her all we need is some fur coats on or sum minks. haha so many bois tryna holla. i was fakin like i was gonna run ova these black dudes in the parkin lot and then he was like hey U gotta Boyfriend, he was not that hot so of course i sed yeah. Life was good for a moment in time. i wanna feel beautiful.
That was random. I need my Baby. ...... i need alota things. peace eaSY babY DollS

-babyC

Current Mood: lonely

im so tired of being soooo tired all the f-in time. I cant sleep worth shit nemore, i might as well stay up and do something useful with the hours i just lay there. then if i ever finally fall asleep i wake up several times .. and then its 6 already and im like NOOO. fuckin sucks ass man. besides my sleeping disorder i think im doing a lil better. im trying not to be depressedabout every lil damn thing. mah dad's supposed to be gettin another cute lil car 4 me to drive around and pick up boys in. ...well drive around anyways. hes just so busy with work rite now, and w/e least i kno he'll do it eventually. I applied for my "dream" job yesterday. i hadda make a resume and dad fixed it and now i sound like really great and better than i am. I wanna work at the new rink/sports complex in waldorf. its a huge place and im so sure it wouldnt be boring. i also wanna teach lil kiddies. yay! so they can get there skate on like me. which i havent done in 4ever...no energy= skipping practices. so i should make bank being a skate gaurd/ frontdesk work and teaching... man i needa get my professional cerfification. one day ima do that shit. i havent heard back from them yet. maybe in a few days? whats nice is that its so close to my school. i got depressed cuz all of us were looking at class rings today at lunch , and i so wish i was graduating from gwynn park. but im def gettin both school names on mah ring. cuz Gp's mah heart. i really really miss living in accokeek. but what can i do, i dont wann think about it anymore. i chiled w/ carrie last weekend, and then i met up with kris at the mall. but i heard that hobbs and terri really needed my crazy ass friday nite. ya kno what is so tite, i have an 100 percent in Trig. NICE. its only cuz our teach is a lil punk and helps us on test and stuff. but hey its another A. I need to get B's in my AP's so i can get that above a 4.0 action. i will tho. cuz im dropping liking andrew. yes its delclared DROPPING ANDREW. hes a bastard anyways. Justin L. is soo f'in awesome, to bad about the whole g/f thing. we joke about gettin our freak on too much, now theres that TENSION. oooo well. Kayla's a sweetheart and maybe she can have a positive affect on justin, cuz he can be a reall JERK sometimes. WE talked on the phone several times this weekend, but i could tell that it was almost akward becuz he was leaving Kayla's both times. but its true u always want what u cant have. he'll be mah lil j boo 4eva no matter who hes dating. i hope we always stay friends. Kayla's party is on saturday, i gotta get her a gift, ha what a soap opera life i live. i'll get her some see thru thongs. hahahah wouldnt justin just faint.
ah im evil, i love it....ah ok im gonna try to have a good day. im gonna try and sleep tonite. cuz i need it BAD. iight well im out

-carebear

Current Mood: horny

nO! the weekend is OVER, and so fast. damnit yo! but i got that 2 days of school next week so its OK i guess. But i had alota fun with mah girls saturday nite, i hOPE BECka feels better. and shes taken me to vegas sometime. Carrie and Kris came over after the GP v. douglas game , GP was sorry. whatevTHESE ugly bois from douglas were tryna holla at me and mah twinnie carrie ew.. Mela did get pissed cuz i was sittin on douglas's side do to the lack of seating on gp's side. but i think were ok now, ok back to mah girls. we rearranged my room, made sooo much food, had a topless hot tub party which invovled me callin andrew. lol he should have came and joined the sexi fun. we just chiiled watched t.v then we once more got top less and had crazy massages, cuz thats my speciality. ask ne one. we broke out the aroma lotians and bby oil. Carrie passed out and kris and i attempted to write on her forehead with lipstick, then we started writing on eachother, then we talked about Jose and Andrew for hours until finally we fell asleep. Kris didnt get lost goin home, wow, carrie and i hit up burgerking b4 i took her home, then church just sucked ass, cuz those seats are so uncomfortable and sleep proof. Then jessica str8 blew me, she invited me to the movies then called back to ask if i could take her and drop her off, then she tells me she lives 15 mins off 5, thats liek 45 mins both ways 4 me to get home, my rents would kirk out, shit i'd kirk out and i did. she was gettin on mah fuckin nerves. im not a fuckin taxi and im not tryna get lost in her neighbor hood either. So i was like Uh lets do this friday with some hot bois. Maybes i can get andrew to come with me/take me, i dunno. my dumb ass invited him over next sat nite, and i 4got im goin to my cuz's house. BLOWER. i miss my baby....not that hes my bby, i just wanna see him ya kno. ...oh man I've gOt iT Bad.

_c

oh damn i feel so sick right now, im sweating...and im burning up, wtf on a friday nite....where was this wed. morning so i could at least dip out of school 4 tha day. some shit this is. BUt, i went to school all week even though i planed on getting "sick" midweek. I

hadda write an autobiography 4 Ap eng. , i used to like to write but now its just another assignment, anyways i think its pretty damn good its about moving- leaving all my babies at Gp with out me, and all that shit. I've felt like Hell over all this week, today was the

best day just becuz Garret didnt ride my NUTS today. the boi is always in my grill Tryna Holla, fact is i like MEN and not BOYS, by that im talking 18 19 20..haha but hes 16, uncool. He can be a fuckin idiot sometimes too. than again what guy isnt? THEY ALL SUCK, and should be spanked....ha ha.. anyways I'm gonna get better tm cuz im tryna drive the BmW up to the Gp game so we can kick

some douglas asss! dont u love it how i say we... i just miss it, like hell. Then kris is gonna follow me back to mah house, were gonna get in the hot tub, and chill out, cuz i havent chilled with my boo boo in a min. angela's party is on saturday, im not gonna

go. becuz i kno what would happen like i'd get lost driving there, say im only gonna drink a tiny bit, end up gettin completely

wasted, attempted to find my way back home, and God only know what would happen. i Only party with people i know will take

care of me, cuz i go buck ass. carrie needs to call me back forreal. iight well i guess im go make some tea and FEEL BETTER.
Bye babies i luv u all
_Carolyn

oooh last nite was so badass. it was Gp's Homecoming, and ooo i was workin it on the dance floor, yeah the bois were drooling and they told me i should be in video's. haha thats great. i love shakin my ass for the fella's and ladies of course. i saw my MIssy,

oh shes mah bun we learned to freak at catholic school dances in 7th grade together, and Becka of course, i wish she had come. It was awesome i got to see alot ppl i hadnt seen since last year. i was bunned with tony hailey all nite, i dunno why, i guess i just

needed someone and i hadnt seen him in a good 6months. everyone came even shaddy. ashley k went with .. rodney, trish went with chris, justin and kayla. it was pretty tite. then we all went to applebees in waldorf, we all rolled in that piece lookin sexified, like party of 15. they r just blown cuz that place was packed, but the sexi ass waiters pulled some strings and we didnt wait but 3 mins.

ooo he was fine i got up to talk to some one at the other end of the table, and he grabbed my waist(the waiter) and im like oh yea. then he gave me my pepsi and sed ..here ya go baby doll..so sweet. NEXT WEEKEND IS MY BIRTHDAY. mela is taken me out..hmmm i so think shes planned a party, if not it still cool, but hmmmm. i <3 her. 17 baby, oh yeah i feel so grown. im so tired

4real. so im gonna go take a nap i guess. peace. luv ya'll
i'll give yall my addy if ya wanna send me b day presents. KISSES.

- c

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